the smiles , the flowers , everything is gone .

is currently ; too much in a bad mood that i can't listen to anythin .

haulahaula . so it turned out that i managed to convince my parents that i'm not yet fit enough to go to school . so that's one problem settled , i'll just have to think how to do the presentation now . i was sooooo absorbed in a VERY VERY good mood just now but something happened just now and ruined it all . right now i'm just feeling a bit shocked , okay not a bit A LOT , and erm unbelieving , confused , surprised , and doubtful . just now , i was surfing the net and i thought i would open my myspace account as i haven't opened it for quite a long time [ long as in 2 days ] so i opened it . and as usual i would view my friends and i accidentally came across this long-time-no-see friend of mine myspace account and i don't know why i just have this sudden feeling that i have to view it . so i clicked on his picture and guess what's written on his profile ? ALLAHYARHAM hisname , 19**-2009 . i was like oh-my-god-i-can't-believe-this-tell-me-this-is-a-lie . and now i do not know whether i should believe what's written on his account or not because i know him for quite a long time and i know he likes to lie . but this is about death surely he's not lying , is he ? the last time i saw him he seems okay and he's laughing and joking and all that , i can't believe he has died . no , i think he's lying . but , urgh . actually we're not friends anymore because of a little somethingsomething that happened between us and since that day even if we saw each other it's like i-do-not-know-you-and-you-do-not-know-me but i still regards him as my friend and i can't believe he's , erm not here anymore . and i do not know why but for the very first time in my whole life i think i'll be happy if he's lying .